vent

I'm so sick of my dad. It's like I never get any appreciation from him, like I'm far from reaching any of his expectation. At least, over the years, my relationship with my mom has gotten better. But my relationship with my dad has only gotten worse.

Since my mom went to work today, and my dad had family over, he expected me to take on my mom's usual duties. At least when I help my mom, she tells me what I need to do ahead of time. But my dad...he expects me to know all this stuff and know when to do them. It's so irritating. When I end up doing it wrong or not the way he wants it, he get all upset. Like hello, maybe if you told me ahead of time, I'd know. But no, he doesn't! Like this is fucking bullshit.

My parents promised me a desk and a chair after they get their tax return money. So my dad told me that after he buys all the stuff he intended to buy, he can give me money and buy my desk. And wtf, now all of a sudden he changes his mind. He's gonna give me $150 to buy a desk & chair and whatever's left over is my money. That's not even enough to buy me a desk! You must be fucking kidding me.

If you think women have big ass mood swings, my dad is another story. His mind changes in such a short amount of time. Like I fucking trip. He's so mean, and he never knows how to show the least bit of appreciation. Then sometimes he's so nice and willing. I don't wanna say that I hate my dad because I've been through too many of those phases when I said I hated him. But I'm just so sick of his bullshit already. Like I'm fucking grown, and I still don't know what a relationship with a father feels like. I seriously thought I was finally competent enough because I was in college. But I was hella wrong. I have a bullshit father.