journey towards self improvement

i know, late on the new year's resolutions. but better late than never.

• hair-- grow my hair at least till my waist. i really miss having long hair. the last time i actually had hair up to my waist was in the sixth grade :( i must refrain from cutting and coloring because my hair is already dead looking as it is. i'll probably use pantene pro-v beautiful lengths or maybe sunsilk.
  
• scars-- rid my legs of all the hideous scars from constant scratching. i promise to moisturize everyday and use bio oil religiously. i'll probably pick up some of the roll on scar remover things from walmart too.
  
• physique-- i'm at a point in my life where i'm fairly content with my weight. i refuse to gain any more. its just that my body has completely lost its tone. i have to admit, i am completely out of shape.
• diet-- i have probably the crappiest diet ever. my boyfriend has been dieting for so long and has given up white rice. i know i've been limiting my rice intake and my stomach has getting used to it, but always eat fast food :( i'll go back to eating yogurt and teas in the morning.
• relationship with God-- i picked up a new Bible last week and so far i've been enjoying it. i must admit that although i have been attending a Catholic church all my life, the Christian lifestyle has been intriguing for me and i have been thinking about attending services at my boyfriend's church for a while now. i feel there is nothing wrong for me to be studying the Bible, just as Christians do because both focus on a Jesus as our Savior.
• attitude-- i have a tendency for comparing myself to other people and i know i must stop
• health-- i guess this ties into diet a lot. i have not been getting the adequate amounts of fruits and vegetables in my diet. and thus i get sick quite often. i suffer from constant headaches due to my sinus pressure and always feel fatigued. once i establish a health lifestyle, i hope that my health improves.

i hope i follow through. i always set (new year's) resolutions for these kinda stuff but i always fail. it's probably the lack of self-motivation. but since i already started with getting rid of my horrible scars, why not work towards improving my body & well being. plus, maybe with all these improvements in appearance, i'll have the confidence once again to go to the beach in a bikini! ;D

competition

...brings out the ugliest in people.
me included.

musically inspired

*image courtesy of google images

....a keyboard/piano. i have a music class this semester and our professor plays bits of songs during class, and i don't know, all of a sudden... i wanna learn how to play! but too bad, i'm not very musically inclined; not to mention-- i don't even know how to read music. if i do learn how to play through self-teaching, i'd be really proud of myself.
soooo, how much does one cost anyway?

retail therapy

i shop too much. when i think about it, even if i say f21 clothes are super cheap...i could be saving that money to buy a new camera or something. haha

HAUL = damage to my wallet

okay, i needed new jeans and a regular tank. i wanted a maxi dress.
i've always wanted revlon colorstay foundation. and i wanted to to stock up on falsies.
muahahaha. see the comparison between WANT & NEED -___-

nonetheless, i am super happy that i finally bought a maxi dress.

....thank you babe for buying my clothes <3 haha

EOTDs ;)

i'm a big time noob when it comes to makeup. after all the blog reading, i've just been trying to experiment. so be nice ;) i know for sure i needa work on the blending, but i don't have pretty blending brushes. haha i'm on a budget.

they're 2 different looks & my camera washed out the colors -___-
Left: MAC girlie / carbon / grain
Right: MAC da bling / carbon / sketch / grain (i think)
haha i didn't shade my other eyebrow

ew, i din't shade my eyebrows in both. yikes!
MAC tendermetal / typographic / grain (i think)
i kinda don't like how its super sparkly

major frustration

it's a pain in the ass to be constantly reminded that i spend money that i shouldn't be spending. i don't even have a job & therefore i am not given a God given right to spend and go shopping everyday >__< *sighhh, i wish money grew on trees.

you know, i have five pieces of clothing that i accumulated in the past month that i haven't even worn yet. not to mention, the LOADS of clothes, mostly dresses, that i've only worn once, and has just been in my closet. AND footwear that i bought because i thought it looked cute at THAT moment, and didn't even wear as much as i expected too. AND a whole lotta handbags that i just end up giving away to my cousins in the philippines. plus, i have a bunch of cosmetics that i don't even know how to use. yyiiiikkesss. thank goodness i don't have a credit card... because by now, i'd be in MAJOR DEBT.

after next week, which is my last week of summer...I'll be practicing the art of minimalism! technically, i kinda already started since my boyfriend has enforced it, and has not allowed me to do anything online shopping since i ordered my free bare minerals sample. i guess i'll have to make do with what i have.

cosmetics wishlist

- Revlon Color Stay foundation-- I need a liquid foundation because I think MAC is gonna be too pricey for me :(
- A brush to apply Studio Fix-- any recommendations, not MAC cus i know they're hella expensive.
- MAC Satin Taupe e/s
MAC Shadowy Lady e/s
MAC Woodwinked e/s (don't know if I should get this since I have Tempting)
MAC Texture e/s
MAC All That Glitters e/s
MAC Shale
MAC Ricepaper
MAC Wedge
MAC Espresso
- Nars Orgasm Blush
- Nars Deep Throat Blush
- Empty pigment sample jars for my UDPP
- MAC blush

-Paul Mitchell Super Skinny Serum
-Extension Clips
-a Gorgeous brown hair color to color extensions for peekaboos!

See what being a super girly girl, makeup addict & blogger/youtube addict leads to.
I should keep this a secret from my boyfriend. But how else would I get my hands on some of these. Thankfully, mom paid for my last (tiny) MAC haul & boyfriend paid for the one before that. Muahaha.