the undeserving?

Are we really undeserving children? I speak for those who are highly accomplished, well-behaved, great daughters and sons. Regardless of our character, we are seen as undeserving. Undeserving of our parent's trust, appreciation, and on a more materialistic level... a car, money, etc. In comparison to our peers, who in high school were those that cut classes, cheated the system, and went behind their parents' back many more times than we ever have. Apparently, according to their families, they deserve far more than we do. Just because they graduated from high school, they apparently deserve all that their parents award them with- a car, a big party to celebrate their accomplishments, a healthy relationship with their parents. But for us, those who have something worth being proud of, are given much, much less appreciation than our counterparts. It's a shame because we do deserve so much. The least we can get should be their appreciation. A simple thank you, or I'm proud of you. But we receive nothing. We've worked hard to have gotten where we are today.

I think that we'd feel more at ease if I was to receive at least an inch of gratitude from my parents. At least I'd know that what I've done to this point in my life is something that my parents are proud of. But till this point in my life, I feel as if what I have done still has not reached my parents' expectations of myself. Perhaps the parents of my counterparts have lower expectations of their own children than my parents have of me... but nonetheless, I'm still undeserving and unappreciated huh. For my whole life now, I've been striving to reach my parents' expectations. And year after year it's another pile of standards. Each year it gets harder for me to reach them....

sighhh...